The Path~

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Our life, its like a journey... a path. The journey begins when we are born to this world. We don't walk this journey or path, We consider it as our story day by day. It started out simple, a straight route to follow as our parents are there to company us all the way,... as we began to walk on our own... the path becomes harder, and we start to learn alot of things on our own. My journey begins easy, in high school the story still an easy one, as i move on to college, it start to become hard. I have to learn how to be an adult, as I am at that stage. The one thing i need to say its not easy to be an adult from a kid. But the path or torn, is also shared, cause i am not walking alone in this path. This path will be combine, as people i meet will walk with me in this path. And when they don't walk with me anymore, they still remain in my heart. I will not be alone, as they are the people who impact my life and lives on in our hearts like a tattoo.. until the day, our journey ends and our story to be bring on to the future generation.

My final model~ do give comment on it! thx!

The path on the forest with trees

Today was a bright and happy day for me as i predicted, I am actually seeing things clearly now, something are open and something are not so open. When i was blinded by my not thinking mind, i was fool that people around me are good but its was not true until i really open my eye and see. Some would ask me why am i working so hard during foundation year? Why am i doing things differently? Well to me, even when i in foundation, i am working my best to prove to myself even my body tell me they are tired, they can still improve and could create something nice and brilliant. I also want to prove myself that i am not like in High school anymore, this is college, every work done have to be completed before the deadline no matter what the circumstances. I feel disappointed sometimes seeing that some would want to delay the dead line. I know its a good thing, but to me, if you make it a habit once in the real world, you will just make the client angry and you will lose money. That how i think. I also want to do my best so that my parents won't have to worry and won't disappointed in me. I want to them to trust me, that i am a good son and i will work my very best 24 hours 7days, even when i say its stupid to not sleep cause i know it is, i can't have no sleep. The last time i did it was during my last college semester, i came to class looking like a piece of garbage and could not control my anger sometimes. That a really bad experience for me and people around me. But if i have to not sleep to do my work, that i will... just to be proud that my work its at that level that i am satisfied. Not many could see things the way i do, as they think i am crazy or retard.


I watch a movie in art and theater class today, It was on Vincent Vangoh the story. He was an artist people thinks he crazy cause he draws and paint everyday at least 3 master piece, but to me his not crazy, he was trying to prove something. He was trying to prove that he love the people around him, he cares for other by painting and drawing their daily life. To show others what it really mean to him in his view point of view. He died a lonely man, as there is not one who likes him, people thinks his crazy cause he was different. At last he committed suicide as the pressure was too much. He became famous only when his dead!... Think of him. When he was alive. His story really means something.

I learn a lot today and start to see things even more differently than last time.

Music of my life~

Its Sunday, the end of the weekend, Today I am moving forward slowly... but i been a rush this two days a bit lately but no more i tell myself. The music of my life tells me that... Today its a rainy day. The rain sounds remind me of the music when i was alone walking under the rain last time in high school. The rain today, reminds me... when i am alone, I am not alone at all... nature around me was with me, when i am sad, the rain was there to wash aways my pain... When i was happy the day was as bright as it was. When i was moody the day cheer me up, clouds cover me and the breeze was touching my face. The song of my life, the sweet sound of nature. I am not alone anymore. Even when i am alone, away from other people... There still nature with me. But now i am happy, cause i still have close friends, and nature is still with me. My song began to grow and becomes louder in my heart. I thank you all... My tears seems to be gone and no more worries now.

A model which inspire me

Today, i was in a rush to finish my working model, as i was in a rush, she came in... a friend which i am trying to get to know. She has a great design ability. She can make the possible impossible. That her strength and she can be strong no matter what the condition. Seeing her model, tells me who she is. As the model stand proudly and was design in a beautiful way. She could visualize a well build building, but yet her model was rejected by the lecturer? How come? I ask myself, her model design was better than mine... I am surprise, so i ask the lecturer after class... its not because she want to reject, its because she things she could do better. Although the design is beautiful she said it could be improve into a more cooler design. Like they said a flower is the most beautiful at its peak of aging. In my view point of view i would consider her work was beautifully presented... and hope she would not give up and work harder as i am supporting her. Do pls give comment about her model work!! Guys and girls Support her!

The near end of my Journey

Life, as i walk this lane... more negative are at my back waiting when i fall but thanks to the light, they don't harm me no more... my light? Its not a power full weapon, nor a power full power i have.. is the love that i give which comes back to me... I remember who i was, a light reminded me, Wei Yan the angel came down from the heaven to remind me... i can love unconditionally... that who i am... but yes finally all i need is some love back. The angel show me that love, thanks for the good memories i said, and now i am stronger and feeling much better. I am weak when i am alone, but friend around me give me strength to be strong. Matthew the guardian was always there... he was the one who helps me when i really need it. He was the one who shows me how to see clearly. Christina the childhood friend, she was always there when i am sad or happy, she the one who could advice the same thing to remind me what i have not done in my life. With all your Love, i will move on and work better. With this i thank you all, it really made me happy. You all are a part of my happiness.

My first model

Being an architecture student, its not as easy as it seems... but its challenging and most of all exciting as it stimulate our mind creatively and intelligent wise. Building a model its not an easy task, its need planning, creativity and most of all knowledge and understanding. Our model reflect who we are and what level its our creativity. My first model refect of a spiral stair case which shows i am on the steps of my most crucial time in life.

A life movie that should be watch.

I watch a movie today, Its called Stranger than Fiction, its a really good movie, and i recommended people to watch this movie, it could really change your life and the way you would think...

Sypnosis
Harold Crick (Will Farrell) is an IRS auditor who almost compulsively measures, quantifies and rationalizes his life. Suddenly, he becomes aware of a voice narrating his life, "accurately and with a better vocabulary." The voice is that of a writer we learn is struggling with writer's block (Emma Thompson), mostly about the best way to make Harold die. When Harold overhears his impending doom, he takes action, and eventually makes his way to a professor of literary theory (Dustin Hoffman), who helps him understand the implications of the narrative life he is leading. The main story line seems to be around a woman he is auditing, played by Maggie Gyllenhaal. Realizing he could die at any moment, Harold begins to break free of his limited, orderly life, and joins Gyllenhaal in a romantic relationship. He tracks down Thompson and confronts her with the truth: if she writes about his death, then he will die. But Hoffman is convinced the novel must be written as intended, and Thompson herself is ambivalent. Crick himself reads the novel and encourages her to keep the original ending, which would kill him.

Eventually, Thompson writes of the fatal accident, but makes the accident only near-fatal. "If you have someone who willingly, knowingly, goes to his death, well...isn't that the kind of person you want to keep alive?" In the end, there is an ode to Harold, Maggie, Dustin, and most of all, Harold's wristwatch.

The sad part of my journey

On my journey of this so called life, I am on the part of my most saddest moment, my mother when outstation to work internationally to afford to pay my college fees, I consider myself lucky compare those who have to work part time and study at the same time. Cause i don't, i get to study in a well educated University, and i appreciate what the college provide me and what my parent are willing to do to accomplish my dream to be an architect. But i am still sad inside and i am going to miss my mother as i am not able to see her for few years, as tears came rolling on to my cheeks, i try to be strong and not show my tears. Its was the hardest and saddess momment. We only become depress and sad when our most precious things are lost, it might be friends, close friend, relationship couple or family. But some, will not notice it, as this we are to consider them does not appreciate what we have. As i walk along, and continue my journey.... its seems going to be tougher but i am going to be strong as the day goes by. I am strong at heart and strong at body and thus i continue my journey.

The journey Beginning

Its begin when i turn into a jerk once again, i forgotten who i was and become my worst pass. Because of this, friend leave me slowly... as the leave me alone, i slowly came to realize that i am going to lose all my friend and trust among others if i continue. But slowly, i tried to change myself to who i was. Not becoming my worst arrogant past, but the gentleman that i was train to become in my high school. Now in college, i came to see that i am easily influence by others. But i must know some of the quality are good and some of bad. I must not stud to the bad quality people but instead i have to learn from the wise and quality people. This is how my journey begin. My journey to seek redemption, and a journey to become a good guy. The hero i once was. Its not an easy journey, Oh no.. its a though one, with obstacle, and path that would lead me astray but this is life. We learn from out mistake and fix it and choosing the rite path to follow. And so my journey continues... and the road may look hard but to me its worth the risk