The Reason

People nowadays for me, they only see the bad in others and tries to find their weakness. Its good to see people the bad side, weakness or the true person, but it turns wrong when they intend to use this as an excuse not to be friends with them, some may use this to tell others what they think of that person, some may want to destroy their life style as jealousy overcome them. My close friend once ask me, why i choose him as a friend even when he tells me he back stabs and his not a good person. The truth is, I didn't know how to answer him that time, until now... if i were to choose a friend, i can over look the bad point in that person and only appreciate the good point. Accepting the bad point of a person is something that some people can't do in this kind of era. I manage to overcome this point, the truth is when other comment or talk bad about other in the front, i just join them and follow that group of people who comment bad about them, i admit that its really a bad thing to do, but behind those who comment bad things about others, in my heart i don't look people that way, some people may be annoying, some may be jealous, talks bad about others, creating rumor, stubborn, always wants to "win", never could accept others, but deep down inside we are all the same, we are all human and we are all ordinary. Nobody perfect, nobody is better than others. For me I accept everyone to be my friend, but, close friends~. For me close friends are people who i can accept their every bad point and still stick to him or her. Even when he did something really wrong, i still manage to forgive him or her. Just don't take this opportunity to take a chance to fool me, i only can forgive close friends three times. I don't change close friends, its because i am happy with just how they are, some may find my happiness annoying, but look at this point of view, why am I always happy? I always want a happy day, never sad, I love to laugh, most of all I love spending time with my closes friends, they are the people who are there when you feel down and always there to help you if you needed help, they are the people who care for you no matter who you are, they accept you no matter what type of person you are. That what close friends are to me. Don't you feel happy when you spend time with close friend who are there? to do all this things? spend time in class? having yam cha section,have trips, Hang out? Anyway, the reason why I am always optimistic, i manage to do things that others can do, some people they say they know me, but the truth do they really know? You may know all the bad things about me, but you don't really know who i really am, the good point in me, and what i really can do. Some people never do try to get to know the person, all they do is first look, to see whether they are ugly, or have face problem, this people you should be a shame of yourself, first look does not really judge who they are, its actually bullshit sometimes. Get to know the people for yourself and get to know them really well. Lastly saying, did you know there are few people who are really good actually. Just really open your eyes, ears and get to know them by yourself~! don't judge people cause you don't like them.


PS: anyone can be my close friend, just find time to let me know you~

The end of my journey

After been walking around and around, wanting to change myself just because of others i came to realize i been wasting my time all along. I ask myself why i been changing so much? what the point, i am already a great guy, and human makes mistakes even the same one as we are not perfect. So after take the one big U turn of my life, i have decided i am perfect the way I am. I must have my own principle of life, own believe and own point of view. I may be annoying to some people, some may not like me cause the way i am. But there one thing that other forget, this is who I am if they can't accept me for who i am, they should not be my close friends and see them self in the mirror. They should see what wrong with them before looking into me, I know myself what wrong and what right therefore the decision i made its my own right decision. I think outside the box cause there will never be 2 choice in life, there will always be 3 or 4 th choices. I make my own best choice. I finally came to realize what a fool i am to be following so many advice when my best friend Christina give me the best advice. So now i am moving forward, being myself never to change the good in me and only change the bad. Being optimistic its not a bad thing, its only bad to others who has a sad life. Think about it!

Two weeks holiday had started, i will be taking this two weeks holiday to be alone~ And the 1st day of the holiday was scary as i am afraid to be alone. But after the 2nd day it feels good to be alone, The second day, i finally get to clear my mind and start thinking straight again. Nobody to judge me and nobody to decide who i should be. So now i am going to take this two weeks to finally be myself and doing things that i like to do~ Drawing, playing my violin, reading my favorite book, watching my favorite movie, hanging out with my close friend~ hope you all are free! ^^ finally i am free~ and most of all i am feeling Happy~

Life

Life, is never easy or simple. Its always complicated with all the route that we take, the choice we make, the opportunities that we should have taken and that we left behind. Chance that we miss out, and chances that should have been made. I made a lot of terrible choice and miss out a lot of opportunities or chances. But this time, i am going to change that. I been hearing to much advice with each of them different in every point of view, with more advice given, the more confuse i get and the route i chooses becomes all spiny and turning around. As to say i am lost. Now, i shall make this chess move that would change the board game. As i am tired sitting and waiting, its not me, if i don't take this opportunities or at least take this chance now i will regret in my whole life time. I don't care the out come of this action because not making this move will make me even more regret.

Remembering just to know where i am.

Today, i was alone at home, so i a lot of time. In the evening i when home and than after off line my com, I started to think back of all the times, good and bad. Also i start to think of all the mistakes i did in life. Its funny sometimes looking back, you actually learn a lot from the mistake that we did, than i also found out, i did repeat some of those mistakes sometimes. Especially when comes to relationship with girls. I am just a normal guy i guess, i am weak around girls that i have feelings for. Haha, kinda of funny don't you think? to be weak around a person. For me, i am weak around people i have feelings for. I would be all quite, talk something senseless and boring, sometimes even ended up not thinking before i say something or do something. I get all nervous around people i have feeling i guess that cause me to act this way. One mistake i remember i did was saying this words second option, i realize those words i said i did't mean it. I was trying to hurt someone cause i was in a emotional condition. But like people said, what past is past all we can do is move on and move forward and not to repeat the mistake that we do. Well my close friend always calls me a NOOB, I know i am sometimes, repeating the same mistake. But mistake that are big, i won't repeat them, just the small ones i consider small mistake, i wish i can tell him that. But telling him just shows that i am running away and not making sense, So from now on i will be myself, i try not to repeat all the mistake i done even the small ones. Sometimes remembering the past maybe painful, but for me remembering the pass its like a reading back you own story, after all history stands for his story, Our past, our history reflects who we are. To those reading this, don't be afraid to review back the past, just remember back the past and move forward. Keep Moving Forward and keep on improving one self. That how you show others you regret what you done and you hope for forgiveness to be return.

Model that i am satisfied with~

This is a model i wanted to post in my blog so long but now only blog... and its a model i am satisfied and planning to put it up like a frame~